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Name: Beth
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Oklahoma City
Birthday: 8/20/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: when i think of interests that i truly enjoy, thrift store shopping comes to mind as one of the biggest acts of therapy i take on. if i thought about these things and had more time to do them, i would paint, color pictures for people in coloring books, cook amazing food (but not eat it) and maybe i would take up a recreational activity such as bull fighting. if i could travel at my leasure, i would not be here right now and would probably have visited all the places i want to including greenland.
Expertise: i am a bon-a-fied maker of laughter and i am also pretty good at eating ice cream. and though most people despise this place, i miss going to OCU's cafeteria and creating the best deserts known to man so watch out sodexho!!!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  BethWag7
MSN: BethWag7@aol.com
Member Since:
2/14/2005
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| wow, last night i did something i have not done in a very long time. i
picked up my bible and had an indepth devotion and got so much out of
it. i can not tell you how refreshing it was to sit down, unbothered
and dive into some of the greatest words of wisdom, and it was just
exactly what i wanted and needed to hear.
on this vacation i have come to a lot of realizations that i knew were
in the back of my head, but did not really ever admit them to myself.
there is so much more to me than i am making myself out to be. i feel
as though God has equipped me with so much to offer to the world that i
am not doing and have not done the majority of my life. i am sure for
those of you reading this, it appears that i am, but i know there is
way more to me than what i have been bringing to the table and i hope
to be able to show those spiritual gifts next year at ocu and for the
rest of my life.
i do not want to sleep in any more because i want to live out every day
that i can, and i want to not focus on the temporary things of life but
enjoy the permanmant and live for permanance, vs temporary things. i
hope i can hang on to this revelation and carry it along with me for
the years i have left on this world, because do any of us truly know
when we will not be here anymore... do we take our legs and feet for
granted with out thinking we could possibly loose them someday to a car
accident? do us musicains abuse our instruments thinking we will always
have them no matter what we do (believe me, i know i do).
these are just some of the thoughts that have been cycling through out
my mind this summer,. i am glad i got back on xanga because i feel it
is really unleashing emotions i knew i had, but did not actually come
to grips on. i want my life to be so much more than it is and i know
the only person holding myself back from that longing it ME... but that
is gonna change!!!
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| so, i am still in my birth place and will be here for probably a whole
month with a lot of fun in store. ok, this weekend is my cousins
wedding and her reception is in a huge tent and there will be a lot of
drinking, a lot of dancing, and hopefully some hot yankee men.
i have thought about it a lot and i am really excited to start school.
i know this year may be the best year if i just do everything right in
my life that i know needs to be done, like live healthy, try not to be
too lazy and work hard on my craft and audition like mad for everything
in sight and look to God for aLL of the direction, for he knows what is
best for this girl.
i finally finished the book i started reading from last summer titled
"emma brown" it was quite enjoyable, very old fashioned, somethjing i
think i am at times, set in 19th century england. this book has
inspired to me fina another good random book to read that no one has
ever heard about. well, not much more to say although i have really
enjoyed this trip so far and the rest and relaxation that goes along
with it!!! miss all my friends though very much!!!
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| yes yes yes... finally, a change of scenery! buffalo, new york- here i am and i got here much shorter than usual because i did not go by car, but by plane this time and it was such a great feeling to not have to take 10 excedrin pm's to pass out to make the time go by in the car. instead, i ordered a glass of wine and that did the job and then we were landing in new york before i knew it.
and i have exciting news, because for a 22nd bday present i am talking my parents into letting me go to NYC for a couple of days that i can share with some very special people. it will have to be cheap though because i am broke, so, "hello mr. mc cormicks"
i am really going to take this vacation seriously as far as the fun is concerned. that means no pigging out til i am miserable or than i get depressed and i do not want or need that on vacation. so far, since my last posting i have done well, and actually feel great about myself. crazy how much feeling can change even in three days!!! well, if any of you who are in NYC and are reading this, hit me up because i am gonna try to visit as many folks as possible.
thank you to all who shared theier concern on my last post. i was not doing it for pity but it was something i had to let out and since i did it, it is making me have a whole new perspective on many details of my life!!! miss you all, escpecially my lyric buddies!!! | | |
| hahaha, who would have ever thought i would be updating my xanga. i almost forgot about it. well, school is almost here and i can not believe lyric is done with as of last night. i had the best experience ever and i think it could have been even better if i had not held myself back with a certain thing that i am ready to be taken out of my life. there is this bad force that controls me called eating and i cant control it sometimes and then i get depressed. i hate it i hate it, and i never thought i would post this on my xanga but i hate it when i pig out on sweets. sometimes i just cant say no. now i know i am not overweight, but just not at the level where i need to be, and i feel that my obsession with this is getting in the way of my life and truly living it out like i want to. i just have to not make it a huge priority in my life like i am... ugh this sucks, and then i will have to start all over. i feel lazy sometimes and then i know there is so much more to life than what i am putting forth with it. i know most of my entries are always positive but the truth is, i am not always happy and i feel the only person holding me back from true happiness is myself and the decisions i make for myself. arghhhhhhhhhh... people please pray for me. i graduate college in a year and will be living, actually living like a human being, i have to break myself of some of these habits i have dug myself into before i hit the real world because if i leave college with these not so good habits they are gonna stick with me for the rest of my life. ok, i am gonna go pack for new york now, but i just had to get this off of my chest. | | |
| the dream role of my life will be taking place tomorrow in the best costume i think i will ever get to wear!! seriously, i feel so blessed right now. doing mayzie is a role i would look at as a little girl sitting in the audience and say to myself, "i want to be that mayzie girl someday" i cant believe this dream came true as corny as that sounds but i am seriously on cloud 9 everytime i am up on that stage doing that role. the show looked sooooooo well tonight everyone has so much energy and charisma to offer to the show that any show you go see with any cast is absolutly superb!!! everyone please come to the show... i perform on saturday night, but if you cant make it then, just come because this show seriously is a masterpiece and our director is brilliant!!! alright, now i must rest up because i will be performing for 1,000 plus children tomorrow and that makes me happy!!! i must be at my best energy to inspire small children to get involved with the arts.
i know i may sound overboard in this post, but i just cant help it and i am not gonna hold any of my excited emotions in. goodnight and God Bless!!! | | |
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